meditation experiment

Have felt,
was feeling
guilty
about not meditating
in light of
my meditator
monk friends
then
counselor W
bounced my
complaint of
frazzledment
back with the suggestion
i meditate

resolved then
not to complain again
but also

let's say
to be on top
of the situation

read about
meditators
bought and listened
to disk on
mantram
meditation
suggested
40 day
program
as the time
in which a practice
will take
effect

felt yukky
after repeating
mantram
40 times

then thought
forty day
program of
meditation
my way
might be
interesting
(sit, nothing
formal, though
on the floor
with a half
stick of incense
- ten minutes ...
and a candle
and plan
on documenting
what occurs)

day four
here
while i
have been
almost ecstatic
that i'm doing
this
and
was
glad
was
doing
it
again
(or, still)
as i settled in
felt mighty
irritated
with the goody
two shoes
practitioner
then
worked through a whole series
of thoughts
resolving various matter
what I want from W
etc.
etc.
etc.